Being Goth? Turning Goth? What is Goth anyway? Is Goth all about wearing black and everything? Or is it some kind of a cult or smthg influencing the young minds?? The question is, what am I turning into? I don’t know, it’s like a go with the flow situation…am I really a Goth? What's in a name anyway, quote Shakespeare "A rose with any other names smells just as sweet"
Many people would have gotten the wrong idea about goth, I don't know when exactly I started to have certain interests on this and hence on my confidence somehow had boosted. I am suffering inside for putting up a mask for the world to see by thinking within the black box. I tend to move towards the artistic point of view. I never met anybody who can really change my perspective on what my life is all about or gonna improve, not even until now. I build this cage with MY OWN hands
Only if it’s that simple, my dear friend. The world will be with no war, no famine, no crime, no abortion, and God will smile down on the world with his godly smirk forevermore and bless us all with raining pizzas from the skies.
I don’t wear black all the time or talk about death everytime I open my mouth lol xD
It’s ironic, I love many people around me and my close friends (those who do not make fun of me and call me nasty names) but I wonder why am I feeling discontent? Am I an ungrateful bard? No it’s not about me hating my life. Not the “Haha I don’t care” tude. I wanna live my life and wanna be different at the same time. I believe happiness is going to fit into the hole which is “YOU” and perhaps being a little Gothic trait in me can make me finally happy in my own sad little way ^__^
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Even though we live in completely different parts of the world, and raised with different values and education we are amazingly similar. So let me tell you about my experience.
Every since I know myself has a person I also wanted to be different. All my life I’ve tried to distinguish myself from the grey mass around me. Not because I thought I was better than others, just because to me everybody is singular and should tried to exhibit their singularity. And trying to achieve this was very hard mostly because I was raised in a small town in Portugal. In small towns when you’re different people always make judgments without knowing you. But that never stopped me from wearing my clothes, doing my haircuts or having my now opinions. I never fitted in a group; I was always the outsider, so I got to know a lot of people as well. But of course, it bothered me because no one really shared my point of view, no one understood me.
When adolescence kidded in I wasn’t like the other girls wanting to wear mini skirts, and lip gloss. I wanted to wear snickers and shorts. So I was more or less a Mary Tom. This was when I had around 14 years old. When I got around 17 I turned myself to the world and I was more or less a neo-hippie. Long hair, long skirts, bracelets in the ankles. This was because i was enlarging my way of seeing the world, which is pretty the much the same one I still have now. That Mankind is a gigantic brotherhood, and that all these wars, pollution just doesn’t make sense.
When I reach around 21 I began to look more like a punk rocker, but because this new trend called Emo, that’s what people, thought I was. So tight jeans, intervention T-shirts, and dark eyes was my thing.
Now I’m 24 and I feel I’m still changing. I think it’s because I’m turning more mature, now I find myself buying vintage dresses. I really dig kitsch, because some thing in a person can look amazing, in another can look terrible. :D
My points are, no matter what you look like don’t accept any labels, because even though I was called a skater girl, a ne-hippie, a punk/emo, I never truly agreed. People are more than labels, even tough I looked like something I always had my opinions. Just because I looked like a punk, I never though Anarchy was the solution for everything or because I looked like a hippie, if never thought that dancing and hugging people would solve the worlds problems.
Second, you should feel comfortable, never force a look, or an aptitude just to fit in. if people talk you with because of the way you dress, they are not worth it. Their head is a massive waste of space. The same applies to people that don’t mingle with you because of the way you look. They are insecure people that have a narrowed mind.
I also want to explain that these changes are gradual, and they happen when you’re growing up you’re learning and you opinions and state of mind grow as well. These changes weren’t because I don’t know what I want. No, it’s precisely because in life people change along the way and I dress and if act just like i feel at that moment. I’m always a reflection of what I truly am and feel.
And it’s because of all this that I understand people think you’re gothic and you may agree that you look like one, but inside you believe you have your own personality that doesn’t comply with the Goth culture.
Be honest to yourself, be YOU. Just this.
Thank you for the advice, sis^^ and I'm sure that your words (eventhough we may be separated by miles and continents) will help me to heal spiriually.
I am a constantly evolving personality but I am very loyal to my initial intrest. Once I make up my mind that I am or love smthg I do, it would last for a long long time, but I am nonetheless would never want to inflict pain and discomfort to people I care about. I do feel that its not important that we display too excessively who we are by deliberately dressing up as per according to whats in our mind. Do you agree?
I would rather be an Goth-minded person rather than a gothic lolita platform model for people to oogle at^^ perhaps a geeky one? Bcoz the thgs that a geeky person love is smwhat unusual from the rest, that sets us apart smhow, but we gain extra knowledge bcoz we care to bother about the thgs that people wouldnt usually cared much for.
Visit again^^
hmmm a Goth geek perhaps?
Well, geek or no geek, trust me, you have an interesting personality and perhaps you have a genuine character. Something which many people in this age, lack. So that aint a bad thing at all is it? :)
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