You will be born fair and beautiful, into a happy religious home (questioning nothing), with 2 happy parents that never fight. You will eat healthily, and get plenty of exercises. Then go to school with happy teachers that enjoy teaching you. At a school with no violence, no cursing, no free sexual acts, and with other religious students. It should go on this way all the way up to high school and in all these times, you won't have a serious girl/boyfriend and you must be happy and sin-free. After school, you will go to college. Then you'd choose a high-paying job (coz money is the only way you're going to be happy) You will finish college in about 25 or so. At this time, you start work. In your free time, you find love, have kids and live in your big house with flawless religious happiness forevermore. Nothing bad happens, nobody learns, evythg is "perfect"...and nobody knows different.
I feel like drowning when I wrote this. Like my weak withered arms can barely keep me floating. Saltwater pours down my throat every seconds. Weaker and weaker to fight anymore. Even if I know somebody who will jump down to save me, I'd still want to feel like I worth it. Worth their energy, am I worth saving. Maybe the world is showing me that they still cared...my luck I'd prolly pull them down with me.
But who knows? Maybe I'll see someone with a Life Jacket. All I know is, I have to learn to swim. So that I wouldn't always have to wonder if I'm going to be rescued or not.
*closes eyes and laughs quietly to myself**
I feel like drowning when I wrote this. Like my weak withered arms can barely keep me floating. Saltwater pours down my throat every seconds. Weaker and weaker to fight anymore. Even if I know somebody who will jump down to save me, I'd still want to feel like I worth it. Worth their energy, am I worth saving. Maybe the world is showing me that they still cared...my luck I'd prolly pull them down with me.
But who knows? Maybe I'll see someone with a Life Jacket. All I know is, I have to learn to swim. So that I wouldn't always have to wonder if I'm going to be rescued or not.
*closes eyes and laughs quietly to myself**
6 comments:
walaou eh.. so deep one... i cant really read them .. ur english words some i dun even understand lol ...
haimeh~ aiyo...my bad de...
here i stand ~ jacket in hand ~ ready to pull you to steady land :)
you should never have to feel like you're drowning, becuz there is always someone standing there at the water's edge, ready to pull you to safer shore ^^
haha ... ty ah.. wei go see my post la. new de i sure bet u will feel unconformable :P any wats the formula d ah .. u say that drink liao can sing vry good de.. wat mix with mix liao ah?
thank you derevenant, thank you!^^
*sobs**
see liao. yoh, what the @_@||| so kejam!
and what formula jeh.i also duno ady, isit the milk powder wan? or cili? both also can de~ i think.
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